I'm a disappointment.

On wednesday I don't know why I actually wanted to give up on myself and I really disappointed someone who really care for me. Maybe I'm not use to my new lifestyle which I have to workhard everyday and sleep late. Also won't have time to watch tv and come online.

Then on that night I didn't really sleep was actually thinking what makes me give up on myself and make people disappointed in me. Then I finally make up my mind that being in sec4 it's normal that I won't be able to watch the tv as and when I want or go online. So I'll promise not to give up and strike to workhard and finish all the thing I have to do.

My Birthday

Happy Birthday to myself. =)Today is my birthday I'm very happy and also very touch by all the people around me like Sheng Long, Pearlyn, Fong Eng, Kasinah, Pei Jun, Magdeline, Ying Qi, Jun Jie, Siti(NP), Siti(4c1), E.T., Mr Ch'ng, Hoi Yan, Shirlyn, my cousin, Leon Soon, Kong Wee, Chun, Shu Hua(xiao mei) some seniors I don't know and of coz not forgetting Xing Long =).

The most touching thing is the birthday present and THE SMS haha. The birthday present is from Mini Toons haha I like the PIG haha so cute and huggable. As for the sms lolz the first sms I receive on my Birthday haha is a birthday song from xl lolz thank you very much. You guys really make my day to the fullest hehe.

My Studies

I feel like giving up already at this rate of my studies don't need to do 'N' Level already. I'm not kidding, by the last 2 tests Physics and POA really not meeting my standard. Think have to be mentally prepare to go ITE already. No choice who ask me study already nothing get into my small brain. Sometimes really very fed up with myself why I cannot be like last year can score well in all subjects except for Social Studies and Geography. Seriously say if it still continue and be on this rate I'm really going to give up on my studies and do some other things. Think i shall get a tution teacher for my Physics and POA. Maybe sooner or later even Chemistry and Math also need. By then I'm really dead meat no time to do other stuff when I get so many tution. CAN ANYONE SAVE ME FROM THIS....

My Life

I find myself started relying on him. I don't know when I started relying on him. Everytime I come online I kind of will wait for him to chat with me, and the first thing I'll do is to check if he is online. I feel very relieve when I talk to him or even chat with him. I know I rely on him too much already but I've never rely on someone so much.

I'm going to give up on KW soon, don't know why, think it's because he always give me this don't care attitude and he won't stand up for me he will just sit at one corner and look *ARGH* don't talk about KW, it make me feel sad and disappointed but I don't know why he started fighting with one of my classmate today.

Today is my first entry haha like this song very much listen to it and think of many things last night. And tears started to come out of my eyes when I was chatting with someone last night and talking about giving up. Really very disappointed with what the friends I have like Louisa she is knid of looking down on me that is how i feel. As for my xiao mei she doesn't seem to wanna talk to me. Mix around with my 2A2 friends all treat me like I'm not around and talk about things i don't know or understand and feel very left out. As for my class very depress no one to talk to when i need a pair of ears to listen to me. Then Wei Hao keep on calling me Chucky I really cannot stand it anymore, not that I never ignore him it's just too irritating. Anyway I already cannot cope with my school work especially POA I seriously need to get a 1 for this subject for 'N' Level. I was wondering how come so many people is interfering into my life like who I chatting with and who I mixing around and also not to get too close to some people. I am wondering if it's my life or other people life I'm living in.