Speically For You

I'm very disappointed with you. I really don't know what I had done wrongly I know I'm the one who started talking about break up. All I want is that you can squeeze out more time for me I know that you are a very busy person but have you ever try? I really don't understand why you have to ask your mum if you can come out and meet me. I know you love your mum very much and I don't mind about it because I know you are being filial. But it really hurts me when you say that when it comes to your mother there is no but. I'm just wondering if you have ever put yourself in my shoe to think about how I feel???

Perharps we are not even meant for each other. I feel that you didn't even bother to go and find out how I feel at some moment of the time in the relationship. I also feel that you neglected my feeling when I'm out with you or when we are on the phone line. Especially when I'm asking if you can go out with me anot? Your first reaction is to check if you are free anot, for that I understand but when you say you have to ask your mum if you can go out anot that really hurts my feeling. It makes me feel that you are not the person I know and the kind of person I love in the past because you are just like a puppet of your mother like a person who lack the ablitity to make his or her own decision to make yourself and people around you to be happy.

Last night when you told me that I broke two of your rules, do you know how surprise I was? Shouldn't you told me about all this rules you have from the start of our relationship instead of before we are about to break up? At least we can play along the rules and not breaking any and you refuse to tell me about all the rules as you say it's too personal. Shouldn't there be no secrets between us since we are a couple? I feel that you are hiding a lot of your personal thoughts in the inner most you.

I also find that one of the two rule you told me is rather ridiculous that is you promise yourself not to kiss a girl and you blame it on me that I broke that rule of yours. I understand that it's the way that you are being bought up makes you have those kind of rules but you are pushing the blame to me. I'm not the one who ask you to kiss me, you are the one who did that? You refuse to let me home outside of my house unless I give you a kiss and who is the one who ask for a kiss before we go on seperate ways heading home and who is the one who ask for a kiss before hanging up the phone? It's you doing it not me and now you blame me for making you feel guilty all the time. Do you know how I feel?

Have you ever wonder how happy I was when you give me a call or send me a sms? I can tell you that I'm very happy and no word can describe the happiness in me when I see your name appearing on the message or our picture accompany with your name when you call me. Perharps to you it is a task or a chore than something you will love doing to make me happy. I really don't know if you did treasure our relationship as much as I treasure you and the relationship for the past three months and twenty-two days.

Do you know how angony I feel when you say those words to me? Do you know that I'm trying my best to accommodate your likes and dislikes. I won't mind giving up watching horror moive for the sake of you and do what you like but have you gave a thought about my feeling? I don't think so.

Do you know that in the past three months and twenty-two day I'm with you it is the happiest time I ever had in the past seventeen years of my life. Like what I've told you I won't mind giving up all I have just to be with you and make you happy. I'll even rush down to be by your side when you need me anytime but can you do the same for me? I don't think so because I know you will allow your mum to come into the situation. Have you ever wonder that how painful it is when you told me that breaking the two rules, you will never be completely happy again? Do you know that this sentence is like a knife cutting my heart deeply again and again?

I really hope that you will try your best to save our relationship last night but I was wrong you didn't do so because you feel that I'm asking you to make a choice between your mum and me which is not what I want or meant. I simply just want to let you know how I feel when I'm with you but I don't think you give a damn about how I feel.

This video is what you had made for me on one of our anniversary. I really like it a lot and now I still like it but tears will start flowing when the music starts to play and the photos starts changing and I know you will not do a single thing for the relationship to start again.



A little something I tried making for you for our 4month anniversary but now i think it's a goodbye gift.


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