Theory About Relationship

Basically I've just found out why I'm still not in a relationship with anybody who I like. Not because they don't want me or I don't want them it's just that I'm afraid of getting into a relationship.

I just found this phrase suit into my theory about relationship and why I'm not in a relationship: You are more frightened of feelings rather than unable to feel, You are more timid of commitment rather than unable to commit. Think this phrase really make sense to me, and I know myself well I am a person who is kind of a little unreasonable at times and I know that I'll be super unreasonable when I don't feel the sense of secure. But how am I going to get my sense of secure from a guy who treasure freedom much more then then sense of secure??

Can I say I rejected 2guys or should I say I rejected 1?? I really rejected 1 guy due to race and religion, but the other the 1 I'm not very sure. He actually asked me if I wanna try out with him for kind of 3times but I've given him the same answer for all 3times... let time give us the answer we want. There's once I'm kind of being too selfish, wanted to be with him just to forget about someone else. He actually scolded me for doing that and he said that I'm just being selfish and not being fair to him. This actually make me think about should I really get into a relationship.

Asked my close buddy who I know since primary1. He actually told me that I shouldn't be bother about this at the moment, I should be busy studying for my 'o' level and studies. I totally agree with it but I need someone who can kind of force me and motivate me to go and study...

If he do ask me again my answer is YES not that I'm despo but I really like him and he has become part of my life that I've been relying on mentally.